by sissy karen
Consequences
Mother led me into the office and sat down in her chair, ordering me to stand up across the desk from her. Her tone of voice was severe and commanding, she sounded angry but was not shouting. I felt intimidated and frightened of her in this mood. She certainly knew how to put the fear of God into me. I bowed my head too afraid to meet her steely gaze.
“Needless to say Georgie you have brought great shame to not only yourself but your wife Brenda and myself too with your despicable behaviour towards Miss Claire. I am in quite a state of shock Georgie. Especially after the commitments you made to chastity this very morning at Church!”
Her words were liked barbed arrows going straight through my heart. I felt contrite, shamed and humiliated as I stood before her. Scared of what possible consequence awaited me.
“I will be informing Brenda of you’re appalling behaviour and inability to control your sinful carnal rage. Your infidelity will be like a knife through her heart Georgie.”
She raised her voice for emphasis. I was horrified, why did she have to tell Brenda? I didn’t even have a chance to plead my case. The thought of my beloved wife Brenda being so upset at me broke my heart too. How would I ever get to make it up to her?
“Please Mother, don’t tell Brenda, I didn’t touch Miss Claire, I just…”
She cut me off sharply.
“Quiet!”
I closed my mouth quick smart and bowed my head. I was shaking in fright. Her power was such over me.
“How dare you! You really are a stupid little man. You heard the sermon from Pastor Vorster that very morning. Jesus himself said that any man who so much as looks at another woman with lust in his mind has already committed adultery. You knew exactly what you were doing Georgie.”
I wanted to plead my case but was too frightened now. Mother continued,
“To make matters worse Clair was actually helping you, in her own free time and you molested her with your eyes. The ingratitude is appalling! She is not even 18 years old. You are truly disgusting Georgie. Then you have the hide to try and ask me not to tell Brenda! To expect me to keep from her that her husband is a cheat and adulterer of under age girls. Brenda has every right to know the truth and I will be ringing her straight after I have dismissed you. There is no dinner for you tonight. You will finish your chores and go straight to bed!”
For the next week Mother was more fierce than usual. Her anger towards me to did not abate one bit. She picked many flaws in my chores, making me repeat them. I was put on her ‘punishment diet’. I had to cook up a large pot of vegetables and lentils and made a soup. No seasonings were allowed, not even stock cubes. After it was cooked it was put in the fridge and for each meal I had to eat it cold. My nightly meal was delayed to right before curfew after all my jobs had been done to her satisfaction. I even had to take a Tupperware container to work of the terrible slop. I certainly was aware every minute of that week that there was a cloud hanging over me.
On Friday evening Mother summoned me to her office. I approached with great trepidation. I stood before her, head bowed submissively, filled with shame and remorse.
“Brenda is on the verge of filing for a divorce Georgie she feels so betrayed by your sinfulness and the breaking of your sacred wedding vows. Imagine how she feels now? She has travelled away from home to advance her career in the hope of earning more money for the family only to be cheated on by you! Such a betrayal Georgie.”
Divorce! It was the word I dreaded to hear. I couldn’t believe it. I was devastated. I loved Brenda with all my heart, I submitted to her Mother’s training in the hope I was making her happy and now it was going to be for nought! Tears started to run down my cheeks.
“Please Mother, let me talk to her, maybe I can help her understand.”
My voice was pleading, begging. Mother responded with a loud and clear,
“No Georgie. That is a privilege you have lost. In the state she is in the last thing she needs is to hear you moaning.”
I slumped in resignation, feeling more and more depressed.
“However Georgie, I do have one idea that might just save your marriage.”
“Please Mother, I will do anything.”
My voice and spirit lifted with this glimmer of hope.
“That’s what I like to hear! Well I had a word with Mrs Grantham from Church who is a partner at a law firm in the City. I discussed your parlous situation with her and she just emailed me some documents you will need to sign. “
This was so humiliating, yet another woman from church who knows about my ‘situation’. I was also wondering what sort of documents Mother would need a solicitor to draw up for me to sign.
Are you willing to go along with my plan Georgie?”
“Yes Mother, please I will do anything to keep Brenda as my wife.”
My voice was pleading, begging her to help.
“First just say into this recorder that you have signed these documents of your own free will, without any coercion.”
She pressed play on her voice recorder and I duly said,
“I George Grantham do solemnly swear that I have signed these document of my own free will without any coercion.”
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Mother then leafed through the multi-paged document towards the last pages and pointed out where I was to sign. I had to sign in four different places. I handed the papers back to Mother and for the first time I detected a light smile from.
“Very good Georgie. What you have just signed is an agreement that if Brenda decides to divorce you she gets 100% of all assets and 90% of any future income you may earn.”
“What?”
My voice was incredulous, I was in shock!
“You didn’t tell me I was agreeing to that!”
I stupidly raised my voice at Mother and she screamed back at me.
“How dare you raise your voice at me!”
She then walked around the desk and slapped me hard across the face. I nearly fell over sideways with the force. My cheek seared with the sting.
“You said you would do anything to save your marriage, in fact you begged me! Are you denying that?”
“No Mother , sorry Mother, I was just shocked.”
My voice was pathetic and weak, her anger had put me back into my submissive place. Humble and contrite.
“This is the best chance to save your marriage, if Brenda sees you are willing to give up everything to stay with her, surely she will see you are genuine in wanting to save your marriage. Can’t you see that?”
“Yes Mother, of course Mother.”
I could see the sense in Mother’s argument but still it seemed a drastic step to take.
“Good, well you can thank me for this suggestion.”
“Yes Mother, Thank you Mother for helping me save my marriage.”
“There is just the matter of your little outburst to deal with now. You can remain on your punishment diet for another week as a way to remind you to control yourself and also to remind you of the poverty you will be facing for the rest of your life if Brenda decides to divorce you. Also no food is to pass your mouth until dinner tomorrow, your only drink is water. Finish off you chores and got straight to bed.”
“Yes Mother.”
I went to bed that night feeling very hungry and sorry for myself. How had it come to this? I had risked my whole lives work, my savings and most of my future income and with nothing concrete in exchange. I just had to hope like hell Brenda would agree to keep me as her husband. I reminisced on that wonderful time of our marriage before Mother moved in. It just made sadder and more depressed. Tears ran down my cheeks and I sobbed myself to sleep.
All that week I was on my best behaviour, making sure all my chores for Mother was done to the best of my ability and on schedule. I even added little touches like a small vase of flowers on her tray when I served her breakfast in bed before work. My nerves were on edge all week awaiting to hear what Brenda was going to decide. Finally on Friday evening Mother called me into her office. I stood before her as she sat behind her desk.
“I have a reply from Brenda about your situation Georgie. Brenda said she was very
impressed with the offer. She said it shows to her that you are sorry for your infidelity and are willing to make amends.”
My heart lifted. Mother’s idea was going to work!
“However when she heard of your infidelity, her heart was broken and she shared her grief with her boss, Matthew. From what Brenda tells me, Matthew is a very successful businessman, has been very supportive of her and her career and to top it off is much stronger and more handsome than you Georgie. He loves Brenda very much and Brenda has been resisting his advances because of her fidelity to you. However once she heard about your infidelity it was too much and when she told Matthew he immediately proposed marriage to her and she said she would divorce you and marry him. So unfortunately our plan did not work Georgie.”
I could not believe what I was hearing. The blood ran out of my face. I was absolutely devastated! Everything I had achieved in my life was lost and most of my future earnings too. Brenda had another man? It was too much and I started to cry.
“Don’t cry Georgie, you should be happy for Brenda, she has found a real man now to replace her cry baby husband.
Mother’s words made me cry even more. I burned red with humiliation.
“What am I going to do? Where I am going to live? I have nothing now.”
Mother walked around the desk, she put her arm around me and said,
“Now now, all is not lost Georgie. Brenda has thought about that, as I said she was impressed with your offer to give her everything in the even of a divorce. Firstly she will be staying in New Zealand permanently now and not returning to this house. You know that while she is very angry with you for your infidelity she still cares for you. She realises it will be hard for you to find anywhere you can afford to live on only 10% of your salary so she asked me if I would mind letting you stay here with me. The good news that I agreed Georgie and board and lodging will only be the other 10% of your salary.”
“Thank you Mother.”
Mother hugged me and I returned her embrace. I was so emotionally devastated I was genuinely grateful for the lifeline she had sent me. Only a few days later did it sink it that I was now in effect Mothers chaste indentured sissy slave.
A few weeks later I was cleaning Mothers office. I found a letter from Brenda and it broke my heart to read it.
Dear Mother 8th January
Since hearing of George's infidelity I have been truly heartbroken. Matthew has been such a rock of support to me. I could not cope with this if it was not for him. Ever since I arrived here he has been supportive, looked after me and helped me with my career. He is so dashing and handsome as well. When I told him I was considering divorce, he proposed to me immediately. I could not say no. He is so much more successful than George ever could be; I know it is for the best Mother. I guess every cloud has a silver lining Mother.
Your loving daughter
Brenda
I started to choke up as I read the letter, hearing her praise for Mathew made me feel so inferior and defeated. It was then I noticed the date on the letter. It was written after Mother had told Brenda of my infidelity with Claire but before she had me sign the documents that gave Brenda everything if we divorced. Mother knew Brenda was intending to divorce and remarry before she got me to sign the document!
I was furious but what could I do? It must have been Mother’s plan all along? She set out to trap me into a life of slavery to her and succeeded! I had to check my anger and suck it up, knowing any reaction would only make things worse and continued polishing her desk. Mother then walked in.
“The date of the wedding has been set Georgie. May 26th! Brenda and Matthew will be staying here for the two weeks leading up to the wedding before going on their honeymoon and returning to New Zealand. You are a going to be a busy little maid, waiting on them hand and foot and helping me prepare for the wedding. It is so exciting! Pastor Vorster will be marrying them. Isn’t that wonderful they are marrying here? All our friends from Church will be able to attend.”
Part 8